Things haven't been too bad since then.. I'm a bit more like my old self and have definately had more energy that I did during the first trimester. I still get tired pretty quickly, and I find that if I have a busy day one day I am completely exhausted (and very sick!) the following day.
The sickness still hasn't passed completely... I'm still being sick most mornings, and quite often in the evening if I'm tired, or instantly as soon as I get hungry (which happens about every 15 minutes!!), but it's much easier to cope with than it has been.
My tummy is starting to look so lovely and round and Daddy-to-be loves patting it and talking to it now (as well as singing to it after a few drinks... it's just as well it probably can't hear him yet!!!)
I've kept a folder where I'm putting one photo per week of my tum and it makes a lovely little timeline... I'm sure one day I'll look back in astonishment at the flat(ish) pictures at the start! Somehow, despite my growing tum, I still haven't put on a lb weight!
I had my 16 week midwife appointment today. I'd prepared a list of questions i had in advance but then completely forgot about it when I got there!! A pretty un-inspiring experience really... she confirmed a few questions from my notes and then I hopped up on the table and let her put goo on my belly so we could hear the little heartbeat which was regular (148 beats per minute).
I asked her about a home birth and don't think she's terribly convinced it's a good idea. She said that 'first time mothers aren't in our criteria' because 'we don't know what your body is capable of'. I found that a bit depressing - surely a midwife should believe that the vast majority of women are capable of giving birth?! I was trying to make it clear to her that it wasn't just a whim and that I also wasn't being fanatical about it - I agreed with her that if there were any complications during my pregnancy I wouldn't have a problem with planning a hospital birth but that I'd like to at least attempt to give birth at home. She agreed that it was my choice and that if it was what I wanted they would support my decision but I got the distinct impression that she thinks i'm mad!
I suppose they just get so used to they system they work within - she said in the trust area they've only attended two home births in the last year. I agreed to go home and think about it and we'll discuss it again at my next appointment in four weeks time. I'm planning to arm myself with print outs of research to support my decision so that i feel capable of standing my ground.
Got home and decided to unload my car which was lovely - I'd been visiting an aunt yesterday who had her second (and last) baby in June this year and he has now outgrown his Moses basket, so they'd popped it in the boot for me last night.
I can't wait to have my own little bundle to pop in it!! We've got two baskets now - the white one and a pink one, so we'll have one in the bedroom and one in the kitchen. Which way round they'll go will depend on whether our little bundle is 'pink' or 'blue' when it arrives!!
In the basket is our babies first bear:
When I was little my bear was really important to me, and I still give him a cuddle when I'm having a hard day!! He's bald all over now and has had to have his eyes and nose restitched countless times! He even won an award once and got featured in the local paper as 'the most loved bear'!! I loved that my Dad had bought him for my Mum and so I'd asked Daddy-to-be to get me a bear. He's from the 'loved and adored' range from Babies'R'Us and has a detachable fleece/silk blankie. I'm going to start sleeping with him after Christmas so when our little one arrives it will already smell like Mum and (in theory) be a comfort.
I'm so excited about meeting my little one next year... it still seems so incredibly far away but I'm sure it will be May before i even know it!!
There'll be lots happening between now and then... we got the bad (but not unexpected) news today that my OH's company is going to close at the end of January, so he'll be made redundant. It's horrible timing for him with me giving up work at the same time, and having just taken on a mortgage for the first time in his life. I personally think it might be the best thing that's ever happened to him (apart from me, of course!!). He's worked in the same company since leaving school and I really think a change will do him a world of good. I just wish that he shared my confidence that things will work out. He's excellent at what he does (designing, making and fitting kitchens) and will be happier once he's doing the hands on work again instead of managing other people, he's well connected in the industry and I have a pretty good head for business... I just have to convince him to take the chance and set up a business of his/our own.
We were talking about it with a friend the other night who has spare space in his business and he has offered it to us rent free for a trial period and I've asked him to speak to his boss about taking a van, tools and some of the showroom displays as part of his redundancy package - we could be fairly well set up for not a lot of money and I'm completely sure it's worth giving it a go. It's just a pity that the market is so unfavourable and that he has such a cautious nature. Still... I'll give him a day or two to sink in before I start pushing him to think about what happens next. I do sometimes wish he was more proactive!!
I'm going to log off shortly to go and make some dinner and then this evening I'm going to finish wrapping the christmas pressies for under the tree. It's so exciting to imagine getting ready for Christmas next year with a whole new person in our family!! I'm pretty confident that next year there might not be so much home baking or hand made Christmas cards but I'm betting it's going to feel more festive than ever!! I'm just about ready for Christmas this year. I ordered all the non-perishable stuff today from Tesco so that's coming tomorrow and then all I'll need to do is get in the fresh stuff on Saturday (for the party we're having on Sunday), and get the fresh turkey and veg on Christmas eve.
I'm still waiting on my most exciting Christmas present ever though - hopefully by then I'll be feeling my baby moving!!!!
Love to all
MummyK
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