Nobody ever said life was going to be fair

Better luck next month...

I knew this month I wasn't pregnant, but it's still disappointing when you know you're REALLY not pregnant. It doesn't help that my DOH hasn't yet realised that early pregnancy symptoms and PMS have pretty much the same symptoms - unfortunately I turn into THE Psycho Bitch From Hell with mood swings, chocolate cravings and heartburn every month without fail.

I do feel a little down about it... I would have loved to have been having an April baby, but I guess I'll just have to try for May instead!

My disappointment hasn't been helped by the fact that a friend of mine is now a doting daddy - following a one night stand. The mother of his baby has been a complete bitch - cutting him off completely during the pregnancy apart from to ask for money. Since Baby came along four weeks ago (and of course, he is just completely gorgeous) our friend has been at her beck and call and it's obvious she's just out for all she can get. Anyway... how come she's already got a baby, and I don't? She went clubbing this weekend! I mean, for crying out loud - your child is FOUR BLOODY WEEKS OLD!!! And she's out on the drink!! Jealousy is NOT an attractive emotion but I can't help myself.... i hate her. Pure and simple hate.

On the plus side I picked up a gorgeous Moses Basket this week in the charity shop.

Yes I know, i know, I've got one already but seriously - how could I resist? A complete bargain at £7 for Mamas and Papas basket, bedding and stand!! And now I've got one for the bedroom and one for the kitchen/living room!!

I decided on Sunday the best thing to beat the cramps and mood swings was to get stuck into something so I sorted out all the stuff in the junk room and filled the bins as well as boxes for the car boot sale... Our nursery now contains nothing apart from all the nursery furniture I'm going to paint and a wardrobe full of baby clothes, reusable nappies and maternity wear.

All I need now is a baby.