Bargain! (Gap Maternity Trousers)

Okay, okay... so it isnt actually a bargain if you don't really need it, but I'll need them someday, right?

So added to my 'baby cupboard' is a gorgeous pair of Gap Maternity Trousers; arrived with tags (rrp £29.95) for a not too shabby £3 (including postage!)

Of course, as soon as my dear OH went out to work this morning I took the opportunity to try them on - they're perfect with a strategically placed cushion!

I'll take them off any time now!! (I'm just hoping nobody comes to the door before that!)

Into month two of our efforts now and every time I think about it (approximately every 9 seconds) I cross my fingers and toes and offer up a little prayer. Every time I go out recently there seem to be pregnant or breastfeeding women everywhere and it's like a punch to the stomach every single time. I can't imagine my future without a baby and the thought makes me feel physically sick.

I've told OH it takes an average of 6 months and can take up to a year - he doesn't know very much about the whole rig-ma-role and I don't want him getting uptight about it, but even he was disappointed when I hadn't conceived last month. Even though we're both capable of thinking about it rationally, I can't override the biology - I feel like I'm missing my heart or my stomach or guts, like some intrinsic part of me is missing.

I guess if it does take a while the plus side will be I will already have bought just about every thing I'll need!

Excuse me for now, I'm just off to check out re-usable nappies on ebay...